"Crimes of the Heart" (play)

Years of living without any return of love from her husband, Babe begins having an affair with a 16 year old black boy, Willie Jay. When she is denied this hope of love, her last string is cut and she shoots her husband. In this monologue she is talking to her sister.
Babe:After we did it, we were just standing around on the back porch playing with Dog(her pet dog). Well, suddenly Zackery comes from around the side of the house. And he startled me 'cause he's supposed to be away at the office, and there he is coming from round the side of the house. Anyway, he says to Willie Jay, "Hey boy, what are you doing back here?" And I say, "He's not doing anything. You just go on home, Willie Jay! You just run right on home." Well, before he can move, Zackery comes up and knocks him once right across the face and then shoves him down the porch steps, causing him to skin up his elbow real bad on that hard concrete. Then he says, "Don't you ever come around her again, or I'll have them cut out your gizzard!" Well, Willie Jay starts crying- these tears come streaming down his face-then he gets up real quick and runs away, with Dog following after him. After that, I don't remember too clearly; let's see? I went on into the living room, and I went right on up to the davenport and opened the drawer where we keep the burglar gun? I took it out. Then I-I brought it up to my ear. That's right. I put it right beside my ear. Why I was gonna shoot off my own head! That's what i was gonna do. Then I heard the back door slamming and suddenly, for some reason, I thought about Mama? How she'd hung herself. And here I was about ready to shoot myself. Then I realized-that's right, I realized how I didn't wanna kill myself! And she-she probably didn't wanna kill herself. She wanted to kill him, and I wanted to kill him, too. I wanted to kill Zackery, not myself. 'Cause I-I wanted to live! So I waited for him to come on into the living room. Then I held out the gun, and I pulled the trigger, aiming for his heart but getting him in the stomach.(pause)It's funny that I really did that.