NUTS

Claudia:(on trial for manslaughter:trying to prove she is too crazy to stand trial for her crime. she has just been asked if she loves her mom) When I was a little girl, I used to say to her, I love you to the moon and down again, and around the world and back again; and she used to say to me, I love you to the sun and down again, and around the stars and back again. Do you remember, Mama? And I used to think, wow, I love Mama and Mama loves me, and what can go wrong. What went wrong Mama? I love you and you love me, and what went wrong? You see, I know she loves me, and I know I love her, and- so what? So waht? She's over there and I'm over here. and she hates me because of things I've done to her, and I hate her because of things she's done to me. You stand up there asking, do you love your daughter, and they say "yes", and you think you've asked something real, and they think they've said something real. You think because you throw the word love around like a frisbee that we're all going to get warm and runny. No. Something happens to some people. They love you so much, they stop noticing you're there, because they're so busy loving you. They love you so much, their love is a gun, and they fire it straight into your head. They love you so much you go right into the hospital. Yes, I know my mother loves me. Mama, I know you love me. And I nkow the one thing you learn when you grow up is that love is not enough. It's too much, and it's not enough.